First of all, insomnia stinks! For the last ten years of my life, I either can’t get tired enough to fall asleep or wake up super early and can’t get back to sleep. I blame menopause and overthinking. I know I’m not alone because if I go on Facebook I see many of my fellow classmates remarking on how they’re still awake too. Lately I seem to wake up at 4, wide awake and begin thinking of things I need to do. When I get the rare 9-hour sleep in, it’s such a gift and makes me feel like a million bucks (much less with inflation though). The big benefit I’m realizing to being awake in the early hours of the day is all of the beautiful sunrises I’ve been missing! Ones a painter couldn’t duplicate with oranges, pinks, purples and blues. I’ve been taking photos with my phone to keep them to look at when I need to feel the simplicity of life. Everything is at a fast pace around us and sometimes we just need to get centered and feel our inner peace and revel in God’s blessings.
“To everything there is a season and a time to every purpose under heaven.” That’s what a sign I made says in my laundry room and I’m really feeling it these days. I remember my mom told me twenty years ago, how hard it is when you have aging parents to watch over along with helping your kids with grandkid duty. Don’t get me wrong, I wouldn’t have it any other way but it gets taxing when you’re at both spectrums. It’s hard to fit in couple time, where we can just relax and enjoy ourselves. We all know if that gets taken off of the list, we pay in some kind of way by not being connected. Like my brother said to me yesterday, we’re in a new season. Yep, we are. Just trying to soak up every minute we have with our parents and also not missing out on the baby cuddles and talking to our toddler and kindergartener about their new adventures. So, as always, time is of the essence. We don’t seem to get any more of it and maybe having insomnia is the way I am seeing a little more of nature that I normally would’ve slept through. God might be trying to give me more time awake and in turn letting me experience more of what life is about – love, connection and peace. Can I just ask for a great night’s sleep every once in a while? That could recharge my aging, depleted battery.
Take a little time to enjoy a new season along with a sunrise or sunset, you may still be tired but I don’t think you’ll regret it.
Happy Holiday Blessings,